Here we go again. This platform has literally become the place where I can write my heart out. Whatever I want, whenever I want. The best part is no one judges, the audience and my fellow writers are so welcoming. You guys take and accept all the emotions so openly. Also, a big hug to those who don't actually read the whole but comment/like anyways. I am just happy of being acknowledged.
I am a happy person. Or it's just what I think I am. I try to be happy and keep everyone around me happy. Do a whole lot of effort for everyone, EVERYONE! To keep them in my life, to not be alone. I am pretty sure by now that I am very scared of being alone. I am a person who is very emotionally dependent on others, I have always been. Maybe because my parents didn't give me that space in my childhood. I am majorly dependent on Panda (my boyfriend of 11 years) and I am grateful for him. But since it's a long-distance thing now, the pillar of my strength has been my best friend (my soulmate rather), we will be calling her Froggie.
Froggie has been keeping me sane for the last few years. I know many of you might think it's wrong to be completely emotionally dependent on anyone else. But I cannot function alone, I just cannot. Being left alone sucks. Many people say we are happiest when we are alone, but to be honest NO Human can function alone! We all need that someone.
Many a time, our parents too fail us to provide a safe space. But in the end, even they are humans. I too recently realised this fact, actually, Froggie made me realise this. I don't exactly know-how, but somehow. She really must be a good friend because I don't really listen to anyone else. It's because I don't want to anymore, all my life people have told me what to do and what not to. Well, I live on my terms now. Learn from my mistakes and actually make mistakes and accept them.
I figured this post was just me blabbering. Anyhoooo, thank you so much for bearing with me. We are in this together. I hope I don't take this much time to write until next time.
