Hi There…
Is it just me or being an Indian offspring is the most difficult task ever. This is my first time ever trying to jolt down how I am actually feeling and it's kinda funny.
Let me tell you a story, it's an average evening at home and I am watching YouTube like any normal Procrastinator. That is when I still do not know how, we have a so-called “fam” discussion about my life goals and what I want to achieve.
So I was like okay let me throw in my ball and explain to them how, I am an average homosapien and I want to do my higher education.
That's when I first knew I fudged up!!
We begin the conversation like normal people if them asking me what plans, what I like and where I wanna pursue my education and stuff. Just the basic general stuff and I ask them for their opinions, (ooof shouldn't have done that).
It's almost 11PM and the conversation is going well surprisingly.
A lil backstory. I have done my Engineering like most Tom-Dick-Harry when I couldn't find what I actually wanna do. So did engineering, yay yay, so smart. But praise the lord I completed and I am currently working again like any Tom-Dick-Harry in an IT field. I wanted to pursue hotel management, but it's too late now and most of you would be thinking “What an upside down person is this one, who wants to do Hotel Management during the pandemic!!
So I decided to stay in the IT field for a while and then think about studying something related to the field I exist in.
Tbvh my mother is one of the chillest, coolest one can find. She has been so supportive through everything but Indian mums will be Indian mums.
At work I'm not really happy with what I'm doing (Crowd says and I cam hear you guys Saying “who the hell is happy”). So I decided to change the course of conversation to mental health issues, since a lot of them in this situation are facing it and we need to be vocal about it and admit it when we are feeling down or stressed instead of keeping it within you. I talk to the fam with my Uncle, Aunt, Cousins, Mum and Dad.
Ooof whatta constructive conversation I thought, I was so very proud of my fam.
I was a lil too early to take the call on saying that.
The moment I told I feel the same way about it since I do not feel happiness and I want to do something else in life and told about my so called trivial problems. Backfire 101 by them saying ‘Oh what problems do you have in life’.
That's when I knew it was a lost cause. Now I know how Jack from Titanic would've felt when Rose kinda did not give him space and let go of him.
"FYI this is just my perspective, plis no hate here. Just tryna be funny and express myself"
Drowning Drowning
During that moment I thought, hmm let's see to what extent I can cause damage to the discussion.
So brought out the big guns and blurted out “I am an Adult now”.
Mind you I am a 23year old woman.
That's when I knew I dug my own grave and literally buried myself. Fam brought out even bigger guns, “oh so you an Adult now. Let's see what you can do. Starting tomorrow you have to give us a hand in household work” .
So the discussion ended with me with watching kpop MVs on the big screen with the fam and getting assigned to household work.
Moral of my story: Do not try to say you're an Adult to your FAM.
Yay me!!!
PS: Can someone tell me how they acquired loan and studied out of country with a hefty amount, need this info for another story time.
