A girl living in the slum area, having a middle class life and a mediocre lifestyle but with the biggest envision, fantasy in her head, capability of doing many things but stung down with many restrictions. She has everything with what a middle class person can be happy, her life's goes on she never though of getting extra in her life because she find it complete with her family inside the house, never realized or imagined the world outside which can be so beautiful and exciting.
She some how steps out, starts exploring, getting involved and got to know that she liked many more things beyond her family, she founds her interest, makes friends, connect to people. That is the true fact that once you start exploring you give yourself more priority and time which can be a hitting thought for family members (who are orthodox and utterly strict). Family member (parents) who thought that she just goes out to have her education and pursue job earn money and come back on time, getting into other stuffs then these can create a problem and may also end up being in some problems (which is basically a saying under the word/emotion “care" considering the limits). She totally respects her family and no matter what, she cannot bare a though of hurting by disrespecting with back answers (orthodox parents finds it quite triggering #hahahah).
She grows up, started having a good job started getting good connections, friends and people who for matter of facts have get togethers, dinner and other stuff as usual she wasn't allowed, she was expected to work for home instead of going out with friends although she does house work but she was accepted to specifically focus on just job and house, no enjoying not leaving the house unnecessarily as this could create a bad impression among society, Here!! we come “The society” the saddest influence and life destroyer of all the living man kind and slum area has a top class bad society to be spoken off. she was fed-up of listening “What will society think”.
She was fed-up, confused and disturbed also in great fear and with a mental state of not understanding what is right and what is wrong, she thought all she need is a free will to do what she wants, get out and be what she is (want to leave house without a question that where are you of too, why are you going, don't go alone, at the most don't go if it isn't necessary) but that was getting harder for her to achieve, as she grows, it got harder and harder for her to live - every positive things started to suffocate her, the restriction started killing her confidence started making her mature self go down she started finding happiness in imaginary things and situation just to pass the day and try to be happy, in all those thing she never stopped working hard for her job, never stopped perusing her dream profession.
Even after all this distracting tactics she found that failing in satisfying herself, it is truly said “A person cannot do things, concentrate on things or be happy unless they are happy inside, unless they are satisfied” she decided to quit and sat for an hour closing the bed-room with a rope in her hand - in looking around she couldn't see anyone to talk or bond as she was a insecure person who has a overthinking of being judged neither she could pull of friends as she couldn't get along because friends can divert you from right things (this was fixed inside her since childhood) in-order to avoid being yelled by her parents, lectured she ignored everything , but did not end up taking that step there were two things which stopped her. First - obviously lack of courage, second - she realized what see opt was wrong because quitting will never make worth of her life, so she left her house it took more courage for her to leave the house then to die, having in mind what can her parent suffer once she leaves - what stupid things people will talk as being a girl that was the biggest step she ever took.
She suffered a lot by seeing her parents getting disappointed by her, cursing her but she never looked back until she succeeded in her life with her dream profession. She was tonted, she was bullied and told what kind of a child she is to her parents and out of all the most hurtful part was her parents never understood what she wanted and why she did. Before leaving she tried multiple time to defend her likes defend her choice to live her life but all ended to failure, her parents couldn't understand. They ceased her by saying that she should live under the rules made or else to leave. The worst pain she felt was this continued thoughts that she was not able or capable in adjusting accordingly to her family, the hurt that if she did adjusted she could have supported her family with all the situations (financially and emotionally) and her family could be happy, but then what about her happiness?
She worked hard got her dream job and after 3 years of struggle she was able to stand and defend herself with what she become, she never stopped caring about her parents (sent money every month through her younger sister so atleast she wasn't there to be a part of emotion but she managed to be there financially). She haven't spoke to her parents since 3 years yet managed to earn respect, became not much but what she desired and most importantly she turned out to be an elegant and beautiful women with all scars, pains, societal gossips with all the sexual abuse she faced as she hasn't had much of a backbone to protect. Her story wasn't a happy ending but a survivor.
Her story shows that it isn't easy or completely right to abandonee what you had from childhood because somewhere you owe them for what they gave you but in owing them that, you should not forget what you are and what you want- a good will and good passion will never end you up wrong, Yes! you will definitely fall, feel the pain which is not bearable, heart break in walking each step when you realize that you abandonee someone who gave you so much since you took birth etc. but you should not sacrifice every ounce of yourself which is worth doing something, worth achieving something. It is Ohk! to think about yourself sometimes, It is Ohk! to be selfish once in a while, It is Ohk! to listen to your heart, It is Ohk! to love your parents while doing what you like, because this sometimes and once in while funda will always bring a better you and Yes! people have to understand your choice, if not people then definitely should your parents.
Just a phrase for everyone - it's ohk to be boring, it's ohk to be sad, it is ohk to expect something more, it is ohk to fantasies everything, because it makes life easy or else it will be just be a head full of burden to live and love.
Love Love!!!!
