What is past ? 

something that we all have in common, some of us share it with others and some of us don't share it with anyone sometimes it gives us strength from inside sometimes it gives us strength to move on and make our present beautiful.

I too had a past I never realised that how bad it is for me until now. I had a friend let's just say friend because late then I never realised how much I love that person but now it is affecting me. It was just friendship with no ego. I got married before he got. He even proposed me before my marriage and many times after marriage too but I never had courage to accept his love or to tell him that how much I love him.i married a well settled boy with my father's choice and gave my best in this marriage. I loved him with no expectations served his family happily and never thought about my past. 

Let's just say that I moved on or I thought that I have moved on but to my surprise I was always stuck in my past and I realised this when I met him in a mall and he looked happy. Which killed me from inside and to top that jealousy he introduced me to his wife. Since then I started stalking him on social media and came to know that he did love marriage.

Now the actual problem arise. Now I am getting all these feelings that what would have happened if I married him how different my life would have been. Did I do a big mistake by rejecting him. Why did I never had courage to tell him how much I loved him and I still do. 

I'm just not able to digest the fact that he fell in love with some other girl. How can he forget about me. I married because i had no choice my family pressurized me but he married by his choice. This is killing me. 

I need closure from him. So I confronted him and after talking to him all my negative thoughts just vanished . I think I always needed that closure infact we all have something that we carry with us as a baggage . We should let it go by seeking a closure. 

Thank you for reading it means alot. Writing all these is like opening my heart in front of someone without the fear of being judged.