Break ups are really painful. Imagine when you would get attached to a person who eventually becomes a part of your daily routine and suddenly one fine morning that person would disappear like they never exists, trust me it hurts. Generally break ups are the last resort which people would adapt for. But in that process any one of the relation ship would adjust a lot which gradually brings the bitterness or the feeling of in-equality.
In my case, I lost my sleep for the initial days and I did barely eat something just to survive. I kept on wondering that what went wrong that our horoscope did not match. When a 5 year relationship broke after involving all your parents and family and friends it is kind of heart breaking and also embarrassing. People start judging your decision making sense. Also, the one I hoped to spend my life with did not have the courage to stand by me, which was really an eye opener incident that what sort of guy I have chosen.
Well, I know I am not the only one who has or was going through such situation. There are thousands of break up which is happening daily or in every seconds and people are going through the same pain.
But the best way, according to me, is to move on. I know there was pain and sense of rejection. I also know people take wrong steps while being rejected by a person.
Moving on is tough but it is the long duration fair solution. I think during the process of moving on what actually gets you going is the work life or a hobby or just maintaining a balanced disciplined life. A routine is always required to be followed during this period to get through. What kept me going is my work. After break up I did not skip my office even for a one day or during the weekend. I started learning all the complicated annual accounts which actually gave me a lot of expertise in my field. I started blogging and tried to vent out all the frustration I had inside.
But going back to the same toxic relationship or that person is not worth. After all we all want mental peace, good health and self respect at the end to have a beautiful life. Also guys, friends play a very very important role in this time. I am fortunate that I have such good friends who made this recovery period easy for me and was always there for me.
One fine morning you will wake up and realise that the scar is still there but it stopped hurting you. you will remember all the memories you have built with that person but its all fading away.
I am also waiting for that one bright and fine morning. Hope that would come soon………………..