It's my personal story related to the worst incident of my life. 
I thought to write about it after creating a poem by comparing death with various other natural acts.

March 21,2021

Death~A thought

Have you seen a sand house,

Fall apart by waves;

Dry leaves of tree,

Falling on the ground;

Slow processes that catch our eyes;

But

Have you seen someone die?

A long-slow dull process

Hides behind a cheerful face

Took the whole life to complete.

No one can see.

No one can feel.

Dec 16,2019

An Incident: Worst one

November month, the arrival of winter season; the most dull, dim season of the year , causes an effect over everybody's life; sometimes good and sometimes bad ; on mine, the worst(this year).

I was in 12th standard, preparing for boards. My pre-board exams were going on . On 16 dec, it was of Mathematics and on 17 dec, the Physics exam was scheduled. But I was suffering badly from headache. I wasn't able to concentrate on anything, even unable to open my eyes properly. But revision of syllabus was important. I tried hard but couldn't.I gave up and thought to take rest, planned to revise a little at night. 

Then, I came across a news; more correctly, a bad news. 

My uncle's father died. Indeed a bad news but the worst thing happened the next, his only son, my little bro, around 5-6 years old, named Aryan also died.

This broke my heart. 

He was a beautiful child though suffering with various serious medical problems from a very small age. But still he was charming and very brave. 

I really loved playing with him whenever he came to our house. He liked my company too,  truly(the game with the ball).

Mummy too loved him alot, his sudden death made her sad. 

But this wasn't the end of the day.

The most worst thing happened to me was something else. 

During the night time. I became able to read , so I took my book and started revising the syllabus. Then, that thing happened. I was feeling like , all the worst things that could happen to broke me were planned to be implemented on a single day, Dec 16,2019.

So, okay, now the incident.

I was studying, then someone told about a bird who had fallen down from the tree grown in the middle of our yard(Bel ka pedh).

As I heard the news, I ran to that bird to see what happened?What was her condition?…etc.

I looked at the bird . She was fluttering her wings , trying to turn herself or to fly, something like that, but couldn't make it.

She was trying really hard, looking here and there. I served her meal, thought she would eat something but she didn't. 

I was looking at her trying to figure out her situation or any possible thing I could do. But there wasn't any.

She was shivering due to the cool weather. At a moment I thought she was looking directly at me. Her glance was very terrific, so powerful, asking for help(I thought)( “Something need to be done").

I wasn't able to move from my position, to leave her in such a terrible condition. It wasn't possible for me. I stood there, looking directly at her , taking long breaks to blink . 

I called for chachaji, thought he could help, make her feel comfortable. 

He said that she needed warmth .

Her condition was critical. Yes, it was, I could see. 

He said that he would do something ,just wait for a while. I thought , okay, let him do something.

But, there wasn't much time. She wasn't having much time. 

When he left, after few seconds, the bird stopped fluttering or shivering. She was still. What happened? There wasn't any sign of movement. I called chachaji immediately. He looked at her and said she was dead. 

She was dead!!!!

This line broke me, hit directly to the heart, I felt something strange, very strong,truly; that feeling was very bad.

I have felt like that before when my grandfather died . By looking at the bird,I remembered him. He was also laying still on the ground similar to the bird. 

She died in front of my eyes. The first living creature who died in front of my eyes. Why??? 

Now I was standing still looking at her without blinking, totally confused.

She died???

Now tell me, how should one consider someone dead? Tell me. The person who is now considered to be dead, actually looking like someone in a deep sleep( dead, what is the difference ?).

I wasn't able to think for a while.

Forgot everything, even about the revision. How could I study after experiencing and witnessing such an awful thing, this much worse thing(someone's death).

My whole body went numb, brain completely lost. What should I do now? It was the question. What should one do in such a situation?

Chachaji asked to me , what I wanted from him now. He said, we need to bury her body now.

I thought , yes, this was the only thing I could do. So, ok, I made up my mind, tried to control myself, my awful thoughts.

Let us do this now.

I went with him outside, find a suitable place, and then buried her body with utmost care.

The weather, the incident, the bird, her still face, everything was making me feel something, something really bad.

Now, I wasn't in that condition to study. Nothing could help me now, as I wasn't able to help her.

May her soul rest in peace.

My whole day, from the very start, was ruined totally. 

This incident made me think differently now. Now, I care more about things, more about people.

I always try to make everyone happy. I hear them patiently.

Because , what can happen next, no one knows.

Be happy with what you have, enjoy with everyone, the outcomes of fights and arguments are never good.

This is life, and life is supposed to be lived happily with your favourite ones.

This date, these incidents will always be in my heart , my mind . I don't know if I ever be able to get rid of this date, those memories ( the worst ones). 

So, this was the story related to my worst day. 

~Newly Risen Sun

Thank you so much for your time in reading this.