Well started testing negative, I started going back to class and I had a lot to catch up on for the past two weeks and there is a lot to be done by the time the course was supposed to end. And from what I got to know, it was going to be a tight schedule that I wouldn't be able to do what I thought I would do in the coming two months. 

I returned the day after I tested negative and I was wondering how would it be after coming back. No one missed me for sure; no one cared and that is fine. Everybody was engrossed in their work. There were acknowledged my return and that felt good; especially the guy at a tea shop who called me out when I passed by to go to class and that felt nice and I was like ‘Yes I Am Back’; but once I reached the class. It was nothing. Because they had no time to lose and there were a lot of things to be done. Even I had a work to be completed for two months and I should finish it in two weeks. Well, that will be done, and parallel to that, something else has to begin as quickly as possible. 

Also, things seem to be messed up completely; maybe it's just the thoughts and maybe it is the feeling post covid. I want a break but I can't afford to take a break anymore considering the circumstances I feel things are happening too soon and I need time to process all of it. 

A part of me is exhausted, a part of me is lazy and a part of me is dejected and part of me is troubled and various other parts of me feel different things that I can't tell anyone. I am feeling distant from almost everything I enjoy. This year was supposed to mean something more than the previous years. But then, it seems to go downhill and there can't be another lockdown and the closing of the institute because there is a lot to do and they can't afford to lose any more time. I am actually feeling pressurised but then that's the challenge and it is the challenge that keeps you going and without the challenge, life is no fun. 

Maybe I will get a consultation regarding post covid and then kick-start the work. Well, that's all for the work, thank you so much for reading. I will see you in the next one.