Three weeks of April have passed, and I haven't written a single blogpost until now. Was I busy? Kind of? Was I sorting out things? Yes, a hundred times, yes. But then, why didn't I write? Because there wasn't anything to write about. Well, there is always something to write about. 

So the month that is supposed to be Awesome isn't as Awesome as it is supposed to be. I meant in terms of alliteration i.e., Awesome April, you know. Most of the days weren't that good, but rather it was partly depressing and almost draining my energy out because on one side, there is work to do and on the other hand, didn't feel like doing it. 

It was quite hard to feel neutral or strike a balance between the two. However, there are quite a few days that felt good. Not too good, but good enough. When I say good it doesn't always have to be something celebratory, it could be little moments though the two good days involve a party (both were on a Saturday) and the other two were more of satisfaction moments.

The party was good because you got to be around people and have good food and watch some performance, and in the end stole the show or shocked the acquaintances by performing. Something they never thought I would do. Same pinch! I felt like doing it, so I did it. And the good thing was, I was acknowledged by the host's friends the next day, and I knew the look which was ‘He is the one who sang.’ Otherwise, I would have been a random stranger to them even if I remember them.

The other days were just we getting up early and finishing my work and not procrastinating, which was satisfactory because I woke up early enough to finish the draft with no rush and mailed it across before it was late. That was a satisfactory feeling. 

The other party happened on the same day I made the submission, and it was again a good party, actually more of a small gathering, good food, a birthday cake and what not. 

The other day is Today, i.e., April 22nd. What is special about today? Earth Day. But yes, today also feels good because I made progress and there is hope. What seemed closed is now open which doesn't mean I am allowed access. But I am feeling good in a way because I am almost done with the work. I am not way behind and now I can focus on other work. Important ones you know. 

Things will get better hopefully. Out of 22 days, I have had 4 good and satisfactory ones. At least I have four rather than zero. You don't always have to feel good every time you go out or do something cool. It can also happen while you are at home doing something or nothing and I cherish that always. 

Maybe getting some fresh air helps but not always. Sometimes, after reaching home, taking a shower followed by a cup of coffee might make you feel better. Even while doing nothing, you can feel good. 

Well, today is a good day so far. I have got eight more days. Let's see how many more good days I will get by the end of the month. 

That's all for now. Thank you so much for reading. I will see you in the next one.