I am sorry I made it happen. Missing out on lot of it. It is not about not getting it, but at least trying it because it is all part of an experience. You can try, because why not? 

Making use of the available time and making use of the available opportunities at each and every moment you get. Time is Ticking as we speak and a part of me is freaking out every time I am reminded but others I look for distraction as avoidance which doesn't always help. 

You see an opportunity, consider it for a while and then forget it throughout, what a shame. Being a writer, there are a lot of opportunities that you tried to utilise but didn't give your hundred percent and so you had to miss that out. It is hard I know. You might assume, you will make it up in the next chance. And what if it doesn't happen? What if you have to wait a little longer for that to happen? And what if it happens, but you aren't there to make use of it? Maybe you lose the benefits and privileges of making it happen? 

Opportunities may not knock twice and even if you get it, you may not be able to use it. Considering the age and time which is passing because as you grow older, time becomes more precious and is the most expensive commodity as you won't get enough of it. You want more than 24 hours but you can't so you have to prioritise accordingly. 

Procrastination comes in the way, I know but the only thing you have to procrastinate are your distractions and temptations which is easier said than done. It is hard, but you can't really afford to miss that out. Life is hard and it is only going to get harder than usual. And you need the strength and courage to face it, to deal with it, some reminders scare you even if they intend to make you aware. 

It's another year, three weeks have passed and you are waiting for things but you can't wait any more because time is ticking. Having said that, there is a lot of things to be sorted. I am trying to hold out to every opportunity because I can't afford to leave out of it. I want to stay, I don't want to leave. Did I make a mistake but then, it is more like… I think I will be fine.

I didn't make a mistake. I like to believe so… and in the midst of all that, I also have to look for ways to stay sane and not lose my mind. 

I guess I will be fine.