Hey folks, first of all apologies for being so late in posting a blog and that is because I was caught up with a lot of work and there isn't really time to lose. It's been more than ten days since I logged in and that wasn't intentional at all. 

I tried to write at night but then I feel real tired and go to sleep early even though I have a hard time sleeping. By the end of the day, you don't have enough energy to think and write and so you shut down your laptop and hit the bed. It's also been a year since I started writing blogs in Candlemonk, that is one specialty of the month which is turning out to be intensely hectic. 

Right before the end of the previous May, I was having a blast with my best friend who came to Kochi a second time for an examination and unlike last time, he stayed a little longer. We enjoyed this trip a lot more than the previous one as we had time. But now, as the month began, it feels more intense as there is a lot to do and we can't afford to lose any more time. It is all part of taking the next big step, something I am worried and unsure about wondering if it is the right choice, and that has to be consciously observed and carefully analysed. I am feeling so stressed as pressure is there everywhere and I just want to breathe and relax for a moment which I don't think I am able to at the moment. I can't go out for a walk because of the unpredictable weather conditions. I can't even chill in the terrace at night because of thunder and lightning, something I detested and feared especially at night. 

It is quite chilling and I want to experience that at least for a moment before heading to work but then we can't afford to relax at least during the time period. I really need a break but before taking one, I have got to finish most of the work. 

June is usually a chilled-out month for me but never in the past decade felt this much pressurised and tensed during the month. Even though it is my birthday month and I believe it to a different month as I think for every month when it begins, I still can't seem to relax. Maybe on my birthday, I will be able to. And if I want that, I have to finish a lot of work in such a short span of time before chilling.