Which one is worse? Not getting a reply or getting a reply only to be deleted after some time? I think we can understand the former but certainly not the latter as it leaves us in doubt wondering what went wrong and if it was our fault. And if we don't get an answer to it, it bugs us for quite a while. It's the same thing with my Instagram account which has been deleted and I still don't know what happened and why it happened. 

Well, I am not here to talk about recovering my account but rather how it bothers me when I get ignored or denied. It might seem that I don't care if people ignore me or avoid me, but deep inside I do. Not for everyone's regard though maybe the ones I care about. It does bother when the people we see as friends or the ones we care about do not reciprocate the same feeling as we do and that hurts real bad. And when I step back, I am blamed for not making an effort. But whenever I make an effort, not even half of it is being reciprocated so what must be done. And the people whom we have known for long and drifting apart from us. A friend put up a status of some of her college mates thanking for being part of their life, it was a picture with each of them. I was also on the list, and when I checked later, the story with my photo has been deleted. It was better if the friend hasn't posted a pic with me rather than posting and deleting it. We might not have been close friends but they have been a good friend in college and it did hurt me when the story with me was removed. I wish to be acknowledged if not befriended. 

I know it is the time period when you are going to lose a lot of people and maybe it is all meant to be and they are meant to leave and I accept that. But denial and ignorance despite being together and knowing each other for long, that truly hurts and all I can do is to keep to my myself because I don't think anyone is going to understand me or what I feel about it.