I was planning to write this very blog much earlier but I was caught up with trying to relax and maybe… enjoy Christmas.

As in my previous blogs, I have mentioned about how distressed I have been for the past few weeks and even the festive vibes didn't really cheer me up at least for a while. But then, towards the week of Christmas I felt little better and relaxed which I wish I had felt earlier but better late than never. 

I didn't do much to feel better to be honest but in a way it was satisfying to an extent. I was taken for carol singing at houses before Christmas Eve which was good and made me somewhat better. Then the Christmas Eve where we went for the midnight Mass and reached home by two and hit the bed by three.

On Christmas Day, I woke an hour before noon and a plate with appam and beef and a cup of tea was waiting for me and I had it with my uncle, aunt, and cousins. A filling and delicious meal and I didn't get the time to digest it because it was lunch in less than three hours. Again, a delicious and filling meal. Last Christmas, it was a large turkey with all the other starters but this time, it was a small one along with chicken biriyani so you can guess how full we have been; not that we finished it all in one go but yes, it was reallyheavy.

An hour after lunch, they went to their relative's place for the holidays while I stayed back. I was fine with it because I wanted to. This was my second Christmas away from home and my first Christmas alone. I wasn't alone till evening so it wouldn't make a difference if they were here. But I wanted to experience Christmas all by myself and this was a chance. I sat in the living room with only the Christmas tree on and sipping a cup of coffee and sometimes, hot chocolate, and just remained quiet. I was still full from the breakfast and lunch so I doubted I should have dinner but I did at around ten.

I watched two Christmas movies in one stretch which made me feel even better but Christmas is getting over so watching such movies wouldn't make sense to me. Usually, I feel sad when Christmas gets over but this time I couldn't care less because of the distress but I finally was able to be calm and relax on the Christmas day. Four Christmas movies in two days, good food, home alone, some music and a cup of coffee and/or hot chocolate; it was good. I was satisfied. Christmas this year would have been the usual if only I hadn't felt troubled and stressed but this was good. I won't say the best but definitely satisfactory. The remaining days till they returned, just called home, did some work at day and remained by myself at the night with the Christmas lights.

Hope you all had a wonderful Christmas! It's a New Year in three days. How does that feel? Oh dear!