I went to London to celebrate my birthday and I am planning to go again to celebrate one year of being in the U.K. The one common thing between these two trips is that I am doing it alone. Yes, a solo trip. But why not go out with some friends? Not a bad idea. But I don't have people to go with. Should I cancel my plan because of that? No way! Does that make me self-obsessed if I do it on my own? I don't think so.

This is not only about solo trips alone but also with other things I do (on my own) Going to a movie (all by myself) dining at a restaurant (by myself) or just going out. (only me) Well, I am sorry if I am enjoying myself a lot by myself. And that doesn't mean I wouldn't go out with a group. I would love to. I would really love to. But I don't want to be in a group for the sake of being in a group. I am not scared of being in a crowded place, if that were the case, I would be sitting in my room most of the time and would step out, only if I had to. I like being in a crowd. I feel more comfortable being in a group of strangers than with people known to me, and that doesn't mean I completely trust strangers. Basically, I enjoy myself a little too much on my own and sadly I don't have people with the same energy as I do. I mean, not looking for a person like me because being like me is going to be boring (because I am boring), it is all about the vibe and energy and doesn't necessarily have to be the same personality, traits, interests and so on.

I am asked if I don't get tired of going alone, but I am used to it and I don't mind but now I would really like to go out with a group which I sure would be a lot of fun. I went out with my cousins the other day and we did have fun even if I was walking a bit further (because of my long legs) but I did have fun. Even if it is a family gathering, I like being surrounded by lots of people. I like interacting with people as that is what my job does. I am good at being friendly but bad at making friends. It requires a lot of effort to make but sometimes, it is easy because of the vibes and energy we share. But having said that, while being out in a group or a crowded space, if I am in control of the environment; (in the sense of not controlling the environment) I am comfortable even if it is a limited space but otherwise I get easily uncomfortable and the irony is that I feel comfortable being in a group of strangers than in a group of relatives. And that doesn't mean, I hate interacting with people, sometimes when I actually interact with someone, the same doesn't get reciprocated at times. And so I stopped trying. And sometimes I get picked on for that unnecessarily which I hate because they don't understand but then I let it be. 

Maybe the concern is that I shouldn't be doing too many of the things alone and should also be open to a group. Well, I am open. I am trying to gel well in a group. I am cordial with others but not fully interactive I suppose. I am not complaining or sad about being alone because I like it and when I want to be with people, I want to be with people and when I want to be alone, I want to be alone. 

People assume that I like being in my room for too long but that's not the case. I make an effort to step out more often and not just from the room but also from the house. Now that the work thing and the uni thing are there, more better. 

Well, that's all for now. Would like to know your thoughts about the same. See you in the next blog post.