Hi dear fellow reader! I am back with another article. But before that I would like to write something that I am feeling lately. Candle monk has become much more than just a platform to write articles. It is more like a personal diary. Where I pour my heart out without the fear of being judged. I come here to lighten the burden of my heart and it feels super good. Thankyou to all the readers who read and like and also comment without judging me. I will always be indebted. 

Today's blog is all about what happened today in my life. I woke up at 6:30 A.M, brushed, bathed, had my breakfast then sat down to study. To concentrate fully I even deactivated my social media. Still managed to waste some time reading few articles about Bollywood online. At 1 I had lunch, and after lunch I just can not sit. So fell asleep and woke up at 5PM. I don't understand the concept of a nap. I just don't. In the evening I got to know that last night my mother forgot milk on stove only resulting in the utensil burned. 

I talked to her about it and she said there is no need to talk to her as she is very distressed these days. I asked her what is bothering her so my father replied everything is bothering them. Kids not getting married, not having any stable jobs, they are distressed with everything. To be honest these talks now angers me a lot. I have never had a healthy relationship with my parents. And if you have read my previous blogs then you will know how my parents actually believe in living for the society. With prioritizing their their neighbor's child marriage instead of their children's exams they now want us to be IAS officers. Some memories are just etched in my heart and I try not to think about them but it just troubles me when my parents say such things. 

My cousin got married last year, she was 23 years old then. I am 27 years old and unmarried and this troubles them. They do not realize that my cousin was ready to get married I am not. That has nothing to do with the growing age. My parents also have this problem where they think nobody will marry me as I am very short. So no matter what the rishta they always say at least the boy is ready to marry you, what do you have to give? Just say yes! Another reason I say no. There are so many things but I don't want to hate my parents, also I just can't take this negativity anymore.