Hi dear fellow bloggers! I am here with another set of my thoughts after a long break. While I was on it I never stopped noticing, never stopped observing that's because maybe it is in my habit now. I attended my cousin's wedding and the very next day travelled to Delhi to attend a friend's wedding. Didn't sleep for straight four days and was on the verge of complete brain shut down. Not habitual of staying alone, that's because I come from a joint family. I have always been surrounded with people at every hour of the day. I stayed alone in Delhi because there were no arrangements for guests at my friend's place. Though her family insisted me to stay there with them but that place was so unhygienic that I decided to get a room in a hotel. Tried sleeping there but as I was alone I kept the lights on and couldn't sleep. Next day I came back but went to my bua's place. There the day started with laughter and ended up with sneaking into the kitchen for snacks late at night. I stayed there for 3 days but in those three days I laughed and enjoyed so much that I couldn't believe it. I along with my cousin's would start dancing anywhere anytime. We would go out and eat, would click lots of pictures, or would just talk. 

Yesterday when I had to come home everybody at my bua's place was sad and was asking me to stay few more days. I was feeling bad too but I had to come home. I was coming back home after a 10 days. In these 10 days my parents never called especially my mother. When I called her it was all a point to point conversation that's it. So when I reached home I decided to stay the same person that I was at my bua's place. But seeing the cold faces of my parents drowned my heart. I came to my room and sat alone. I promised myself that I won't let this behavior of my parents make me a depressed person. So when I woke up in the morning I did all my chores on time and no matter how everybody else talked, I replied in a healthy tone. But in the evening my mother went to our neighbor's home and didn't inform us. When she came back she started knocking on the door unstoppably, I unbolted the door and asked where she was and to this she started shouting on me. Angrily I asked her to treat me like a grown up and she replied with something very mean. And that's when I realized at times it's about the people you are surrounded with. I told my mother to not talk to me but I miss that girl who was laughing till yesterday, who was happy whereas here I am constantly been told I am a burden as I don't have a government job and also I am not getting married. The gloomy days are back again.