Dear nash

if you are reading this I am crazy enough I am strong enough I meet you in a video 2 years ago and other I am standing you saved me you really did I am thankful I really am I was thinking of committing suicide last month but I did not. I did not because I know you are proud I got through this 

I didn't because I didn't want my loss to make you sad you are one of the 4 reasons I am alive at the moment and I am happy that this letter is not a death now for some weak fangirl I am not a weak fangirl who didn't make I made it

Dear Nash

You didn't answer the last letter I hope you do in this one today I am sad my dog died some hours ago I cut I feel stupid but I did yeah I was so blurred sorry I disappoint you 

Dear Nash

Yesterday was my boyfriend's birthday well to be exact ex-boyfriend 

we fight badly it was all his fault he told me I should give up on sending you letters and I tried to explain that this was like giving up loving you impossible he did not understand we ended up breaking up

I am sad are you even reading this 

Dear nash

I do not even think you are reading this anymore today was my birthday anyways

it was awful not kidding mum and dad fought 

again. I found out that I was just a mistake for them I could not take it anymore I cut it again I know in my first letter I have promised you I am fine but now things started to be getting bad why am I writing anymore 

you do not even care

So this is it Hello everyone i hope you all are good i am not into writing i think i will close my account this week or next week til i again find my motivation to start writing every thing is so hectic can not take it so i am gonna take a small maybe or long break after those week or after another week i am close to redeem my first payment so i hope you all can support me till then and thank you all for reading y blo

i am really happy and i love reading your blogs too