Self-love! Self-love! Self-love!
Every day we come across so many stories about self-love. Self-love is the unconditional love for yourself and avoiding every criticism a person makes about you. A person who loves himself or herself is the most confident person you will meet in your entire life. They feel that they are the best version of themselves and are enough for themselves. There are also some people who are obsessed with themselves and that might be perceived by the world as the way in over their head personality. Then there are some people who loathe themselves and try to bring out the smallest defect and make it a big issue. Then there are those who are stuck between loving and hating themselves.
Believe it or not, I am the one who is caught in the middle and honestly there seems to be no way out. Every day on an average I come across at least ten instagram posts that deal with “self-love”. All the influencers showcase a version of themselves that is completely different from their real self and promote the idea of loving yourself. Why is loving the person you are at this stage of life so important. Today the pressure of loving yourself is more depressing than actually not being able to love yourself. The society has started accepting the people as they are but what if someone doesn’t want to be accepted. What if someone has tried thousands of time but has failed to love themselves. Are they outcasts? Will they not be considered normal?
There have been times when I have criticized myself in a way that was difficult to overcome but there are some moments where I appreciate everything about myself. But, self-love doesn’t involve even a moment of self-doubt. Today when I stand in front of the mirror and observe myself I see no spark on my face, I don’t see even a hint of confidence and when I introspect myself I realize that I don’t even love my personality. I like myself but love is not something I have felt. This is because the person I am today is not me. I am a fun-loving, adventurous, badass and a sassy person. I am brave and an extrovert and never stop myself from doing something crazy. But, those who know me today, they have never seen me as the person I have described myself to be. That’s because I have never been confident enough to put myself out there because I don’t love myself unconditionally. Though there is one person I am in love with. My future self is my one true love. I can envision her to be the person I have always desired to be.
Sometimes the environment around can also have a great impact on these things. I live in a lavish house with all the luxuries there exist but still I don’t feel that I belong here. I belong in my city of dreams- The New York City. People might be thinking that I am ungrateful but the feeling of being left out is unexplainable. For me, my real life will begin when I am capable enough to go to my dream destination and explore the person I have always wanted to be.
