Just another day… so many hours passed and I never thought I would ever get such days or hours when I would have no idea how you might be doing or if you were alright and all of sudden it became so real that now I am passing every single hour hoping you to get my signals and hints. Until now I have attempted three possible ways to get noticed by you but even on third day it seems like you didn't come across them yet. I am just considering the possibility when you can't be able to do anything because of prohibition, restrictions or maybe always being watched by someone, so even if you might have opportunities to get these signals, you won't be able to. 

You don't seem to do anything on that ‘three liners’ platform and which suggests that you have been inactive there for days and not sure if you will be coming here to write anything until next time, because without that I doubt if any of these words and all of those things that I have written for you will ever reach you. But I have my beautiful hopeless hope and I am counting on that. Someday you will get just one hint and read all of these. 

I am hoping you to complete that paragraph for that lonely kid and post it so I will get to know if you are there, because if you will be then you will certainly know that I am passionately waiting to hear anything from you so I can be relieved to know if you are alright. I hope you haven't lost the anchor and will always anchored to me. You wanted me to start journaling and write anything that goes on my mind, and what could be better than this? I am going to try my best to write something for you every single day, just because whatever silence we are having, at least you will get to know everything from my side.

I hope you are not mad at me and didn't stop caring about me and us. I know, after the chaos you might had to make a difficult choice and no wonder what you might have chosen, maybe that's why there's this one worst possibility where I may never hear anything from you or you will never contact me again. But if this one worst possibility is not true then I hope you know that I am always going to wait for you and I hope you won't be mad at me for not contacting you because any form of direct communication may cause even more chaos. I hope you didn't give up on me completely and already moved on so easily because I know that won't be easy. Even if we had issues, I believe that there were moments that were very close to your heart and you will never stop loving me for those moments, efforts, words and silly things I did for you. Please hold on to everything good we have and not on just those moments when you thought it was all a sudden mistake. My very last Anchored Letter about limitations and lack of expression made it all clear that the problem wasn't with us but our lack of proper way of communication and I and we were already going to work on it.

I hope it's not already too late now because I will never be able to accept this reality where we got separated in a way that shook our worlds. Just know that I am/will always anchored to you and whatever we shared, talked and confessed initially means a lot to me so I am going to stand for each and every word  of it. No matter what happens, what time or distance there will be, I will always  belong to you and stay anchored to you. 

I wish I could know anything about you and the way you might be handling yourself. I wish if I could know what you think or feel about me now. I wish I could know if after all that chaos you hate me or still concerned about me. I wish I could know if you are still anchored to me and think about me as you always used to. I wish if I could have you once again so I could fix and avoid everything that I was doing wrong and give you the peace that I have been initially. 

I wish if I could do something to make you read all of this.