I won't cry anymore,                          I just need to breathe,                       I am okay,                                           I am alright,                                            I just need to feel LOVED.

      I know it is just in my head,               You all love and care for me,                                                                          It's just in my head that                     I feel so UNLOVED.

    I need some hugs and kisses,         To make me feel better.

     I can't describe what I feel,              I can't say what I need.

Nowadays I just pretend to smile, With the sadness in my eyes.

        I just feel so lost and                                                                                   I often have some thoughts to end my life.    

     I feel like I am a living dead,            I need some love to come alive.

     I want to scream, beg and cry        for some help.                                     I want to reach for your hand.

   Please just hold my hand,                And listen to whisper of my            silence.

  Just be with me for a while,              I just need some time to be fine.

       I swear I am not mad,                      I may have some issues.  

       I need some understanding            for those                                            Days when i cry for no reason.

        I just need some peace of mind.

     I just want to live again with a smile,                                                       So bright competing the sun.

     I want to scream and come out of my head,                                              I know you all are here for me,                                                                 So hold me tight and don't let me go.                                                               Give me some time,                            Don't let me DIE.                                                                                                                                                                         ***

Life is full of pain. There is too much everyone needs to go through in life to live fully. We loss to much of ourselves on this way.  We need to heal from all the emotional and physical scars, and we need to blur some memories to live again. Life is like living in a jungle. You have to do anything to survive in this world. We have to live with our life at stake all the time. The life which is too fragile for this world.

We fall too many times in the life for to stand straight. The pain we feel when we fall gives us strength to endure it all. In return life gives us experience as gift.

                                                                                        ***

Life where are you running wildly in this cruel world made of everyone pain, misery, sorrow, hate, envy, death, despair and love. Where are you taking me? Taking me away from my happiness and my love. Taking me away from it all. Where is it you are heading in this deserted world?

Will you ever let me return to my happiness or will my death will be end of it all.           

                   ~Dolly Gupta