You see I was the rebellious child you dare to nag, but more than that I was more of a foodie so my rebel behavior use to set me apart when someone offered me food. 

Growing with a similar habit my love for food intensified over a course of time and so does my body weight. But I was truly happy with myself back then and now too. I didn't mind growing two or more inches larger that made me sit beside a baby elephant but my parents and other well-wisher were concerned about it, but I still didn't mind. So I keep eating and gaining weight as usual. But then, I grew up…

As I grew up I realized the beauty and fitness standards of being a girl and as hormones suggested I started nudging myself to fit into a standard fitness style the world suggested. I started pilates, HIIT workouts, jogging, fasting. You name it. Soon, I saw the results and so does the world, glimpsing myself, appreciating the new me the world, and I was awestruck but little did I know I had already pushed myself to the worst mindset I have ever been in. 

Fitness standards for me had a completely different meaning, I started defaming someone who didn't meet the ideal body needs and envied those who were way better than me. ( I was in a toxic relationship with my body and mind) soon these become too harder to control and I took a back step, abstaining from the past actions I returned to my comfort zone where I was happier but this time the happiness wasn't the same neither it last long to call the feeling of contentment. I started blaming myself to cause a blunder like that, I ruined my best self and I couldn't be like her anymore, neither did I have the potential like other girls to pull that right off, and I couldn't be more righteous than ever, true I didn't have the potential like other girls, I have way more than that, but It was yet to discover. The fitness craze was at its peak only the disappointment was holding it back( but how did I know I hadn't quite yet, the burning desire is still burning will the pettiest fire inside), time passed by and my right informed knowledge about fitness bolstered day after the other. I understand what fitness goals look like, what it meant when you say I am healthy, learn everything about calories, fats, abs, and carbs, and way more than that.

I started again from scratch and this time with the healthiest mindset I have ever been in started doing Pilates again accompanied by relaxing exercises like yoga, brain exercise like meditation, eating right while loving your body, and embracing every bit of it. 

To be very honest I was glad tha