This is about the guy whom i have know since childhood.We were inseperable until he moved to a different city but he would still visit me every year and many years went alright till had our glowups.

Maybe this wasnt love but we were both attracted to each other now and not in a friendly way.

One year he visited me and we were having a good time as always.He was always here for a month.He kept asking me out and i never took him seriously.

One day he did not meet me,wasnt recieving my calls or replying to my messages.And I started crying i did not have a good feeling about what was happening.I thought he was serious about asking me out and he is mad at me because i did not take him seriously.

Now i started feeling maybe I really love him and that is the reason i am so restless and anxious when he was away,this never happened in the past.

He met me in the evening,saw me crying,hugged me and i started yelling at him for not recieving my calls and he said he was out playing with his brothers and had his phone in the bag.I did not tell him about how I felt and things were back to normal.

Then he was leaving and again I was crying and I had never cried.He went away and next day when we were on call he asked me out again and i did not think it was the right thing to do because if the relationship gets messed up so does the friendship.

He somehow convinced me and we started dating.It was all i could ever ask for.The perfect relationship where i got my bestfriend and boyfriend in one person.

But something was missing.That spark,that excitement.and all these things were screaming to me that this isnt love dont give him any false hopes just breakup with him.

And one fine day i messaged him that maybe we arent meant to date and told him about all the doubts i had and even spoke on call with him about this.

He agreed with everything and we brokeup on good terms.But still today we arent back to normal.

Whenever we meet we are never like we used to be.I miss us.

I think overthinking is not bad afterall when it comes to situations like this.