Years went by we grew up. And one day I decided to confess my feelings for him. It was not a smart move I guess. But I just wanted to tell him everything about what my feelings are for him. I started the normal conversation with him. It was something in November. After 5 to 10 minutes I told him everything. He didn't reply to me for about 15 minutes. and then he just said that we are better as friends and he is not interested in love or any relationship. I felt bad at that time but I knew at least we were friends.

The next morning, I decided to talk to him if everything was good or not. Rather I saw myself blocked by the person I love the most. It was a terrible feeling. He stopped to hang out with me as well. I told my cousin everything and there I made a mistake. After two weeks when I went to my aunt's house everyone was knowing that I love him. Every friend in my group knew that thing. So I decided not to hang out with anyone over there. Every day like a fool I used to stare at his display picture on WhatsApp and think that I should not have told him. But bad luck.

Months pass by, we were no longer friends. But suddenly I saw that he had unblocked me from WhatsApp. I was kinda happy. That time I decided not to bother him at all. But one day he messaged me and we talk for hours. It was not like before. We were just talking like a formality or something. I thought that I should stay away from him. I stopped contacting him. In between, he had his first bike and I was very happy for him. Then on 31st December, New Year's eve, we all decided to stay at my cousin's house. We had a lot of fun that night. While gossiping someone started telling me about his horrible accident. I started crying after hearing everything from them and I just thanked God that everything was fine.

I don't know where life was taking me. We shifted near his house like in his area. I was happy a little bit. I moved on from him a long time back. My cousin was like if you had waited for him he would have come to you. Again we started hanging out like we used to do before confessing to him. Everything was back to normal. We became friends again. We spend almost the whole day with each other.

I don't want to lose him ever again. It's okay if we are just friends but at least he is in my life again. I just want to say that deep down in the corner of my heart the feelings for him are still alive. The love for him is still there. But This time I can't afford to lose him and I will not lose him.

Thank you…!!!!