Continuing my last blog, I literally knew that my relationship with someone has ended up and I have to stop crying over that is on Jan 9th of 2019. For days and months, I have hurted myself. Cried a lot un knowingly even infront of  my parents. I couldn't answer them why I was crying and kept on remembering them the very old incidents with them which made me cry for real. They smiled at me and took a very gentle care. I locked up myself in the bathroom and cried for hours. Look how silly I was. 

All my friends kept on requesting me, warning me and what else they tried hard to take me out of that pain. Even my bestie started crying for me. And that is then I started realising that it is the time to move on. I blocked him on whatsApp of course he blocked me on that a long ago😅. I blocked him , deleted the chat and stopped looking for new messages from him and stopped looking at our memories. I cleared my gallery vault and deleted all of his pictures and our memories and miseries too. 🙂

Days passed and I stopped celebrating his birthday. On the same date again in 2020, I remembered but didn't cry😁. And so the lock down came and I don't know how the days passed. I have everyone home and we started going for evening walk every day , started sleeping a lot, started learning new things. But couldn't take out an eye from him. I kept on knowing what's happening in his life. And one day he posted a story with a meme with content:

Mom: what about your girlfriend or ex? 

Me:  Died due to Covid 😂

Seeing that, I burst into tears and also I have faced many such actions from him so it's impact didn't last for long on me. 

By the end of 2020, I had 2 dreams with him one being us happy and other sad. 

By the end of October, I went to my sister's friend's sister's marriage. Long relation right! Long distance too😁. There again I had a dream in which we really broke up. I went to terrace and called his friend and cried on it. But I should not in that situation. I am not not at my home right?!. Wiped my tears , went down, got ready and joined the sangeet. 

I had a crush on someone there😍🙈. 

To be continued in my next blog. 

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