It seems to happen within the blink of an eye, they're now gone, and yet some part of you saw it coming your way. Deep in your heart you know you might have asked for it day in day out, but when it finally arrives it feels like you're suddenly hit by a bus and it has sent you airborne.

That weight on your chest is so heavy as if the entire sky is resting on it. The sound of your heartbeat is loud enough to make your eardrums explode. You just can't figure out what will you do next, now that they're gone. You all of a sudden don't know where you belong.

First week after it happens you will cry, you will try every way to run away from your feelings and the moments of weakness. You may or may not have a best friend to share this pain with. Even if you do, nothing seems to take away the pain. You don't want the world to know what they did to you because you don't want people to look at them with distaste in their eyes. You still want to believe they're good for you, but it is as far as it can be from the truth.

 • A few days have gone by, you've exhausted every option that is available to distract yourself and now, the feeling of wanting them back has superseded every other emotion and thought. You believe they'll keep a place for you in their heart because they said so. You have faith that they'll keep you close, especially after you gave them a second chance in the past. You summon all the courage you have, push your ego aside and decide to call them. They answer it, the sound of their voice brings back so many thoughts and emotions at once. You have tears in your eyes and you beg them to stay. But I'm so sorry to tell you my friend. They will not stay.

It's the thing about human nature, we're all fascinated by new people, opportunities, things in life that we most certainly forget about the mess we've been leaving behind. As long as we get to cling to what we've newly found, we will move right past what we used to have. There might still be people who do not abandon the people they said they cared about. I would hope so.

Now the question arises why does this happen? Even though a toxic person has left our life, we end up knocked out. Did getting close to someone weaken you? Or is it same as the science behind the addiction of substances?

I welcome your take on this. Your perspective is bound to widen my thinking

(To be continued)