My first love,

Sweet, sour, and bitter.

He was toxic and had a bit of anger.

It started with that one person who,

Was the third person,

To obliterate our relationship.

And my friendship.

A guy that fell in love with me,

Never did he confess his love for me.

Never confronted it to me,

Never spoke about it,

Nor did he ever gave me signs.

About how hard he fell for my eyes.

But there was something evil,

The way his eyes used to shine.

Maybe a devil in disguise?

It was a blow on my face,

When he lied,

And my love believed it,

With his open eyes.

A lie that I cheated on him.

Gave pain that I cannot explain.

I cried and cried,

To make him believe that I did not.

But nothing could clear the fog from his eyes,

When all he could see was,

The lies in his mind.

I begged him to believe me,

But he chose to fight with me,

I pleaded with him to listen to me,

But he just accused me,

With words that maybe I won't be able to write,

He ended everything inside me.

Pain is a small word to acknowledge,

About how I've been on edge,

To let go of everything,

And say goodbye.

Magic maybe?

Bought me to life,

When at last he said,

I believe you,

Saved me from dying inside.

I should have stopped myself that day,

I should have ended it,

Like a fool, I trusted him,

That he loved me and believed in me.

Love is blind for a reason,

Isn't it?

If only I had self-respect back then,

I wouldn't have tarnished this way.

At least I could have faced myself,

And not run away.

We moved on from that phase,

I tried to forget it,

Cause my love was greater of all than his,

But,

Nothing lasts forever,

My eyes are teary when I write this,

If he is reading this, then he will know,

How hard I loved him,

But he lost me the moment he believed,

The lies that they brewed,

Against me.

And he ended up getting screwed.

What happened next doesn't matter,

Our relationship ended later,

But the death of our relationship was inevitable,

Cause, my man didn't love me.

Maybe he was not capable enough?

I don't know if he still remembers me or not

But I despise him,

For the scars, he left behind.

Which haunts me every night,

That every guy has the same might,

To say ridiculous and despicable lies.

And now I will remember this for all my life.