As a child everyone wants to grow up fast. To be an adult, to be independent, to go anywhere without asking, of course to not study and just do not care about school stuff. But we as a innocent soul actually never fathom the fact that what exactly it takes to be an adult or to live that independent life. My childhood was also kinda similar and normal.

However, as I grew old I had this unpleasant realization about life that things are now not easy and simple as I thought it would be as a toddler. It takes a lot to be a grown up. It no longer felt blissful and free but restive and agitated. Felt like I had this opaque imagine in my mind all this time and now when it is vivid and clear I no longer be able to recognize who and what I really want.

Spent some amazing and memorable time at the school for 12 freaking years. Then most of us went straight to college and time just flew quickly. We are nurtured in way that we wish for a life with a stable, decent paying job, food to eat, roof over head and a healthy body and this is pretty much how others wants us to spend our life. But we are now in a time where crowd of people wish to have more than just bare minimum. There are sizeable amount of individuals out there with astonishing and remarkable talents, whereas I found myself an ordinary person with no such skill set and talents. I bet many of you can relate to me. I am on the verge to get graduate this year and still have no !dea what exactly am I gonna do after this. Moreover I often ask myself this question that What really is the next step of my life. Obviously I do not get any answers.

The only point of writing all this is to just think that we have swamped years of our life into education and getting into the prestigious institution and now at this point it seems like I have actually not acquired real life lessons and teaching that are gonna aid me decide what after this. All my life I have had discussions with my folks about significant life decision although seems like no one actually understand what I want for the net following years. Their concern and worries are reasonable but maybe I do not want what they had or want they wish me to have that is the bare minimum. It's like they have planned it all on my behalf that what should I do, when should I get settled and every stage and step of my life. I appreciate everything but still figuring out what is something that I wanna peruse as my future and eager to the answer of what will be the next step is?