Have you ever had an experiamce of becoming numb and scared at night eventhough you were so happy and thrilled at the day time?

At the day time, when you were witg your family or friends, you look so happy. Unbothered by the problems around you. You always annoy your little brother, nagging your mother, laughing weirdly at every stupid jokes, saying crazy things to make others laugh that doesn't make any sense. You seems happy inside out. But everything comes to an end when the lights are turned off at night.

I really don't know what is exactly happening. You were such a happy baby all day and then you suddenly change to an another emotion within a speck of time. How is that possible? I mean, its fascinating, right. You hide all your worries and sorrows inside and laugh and act crazy infront of others in the daytime and when the night comes you have nothing left but this sorrows. But the worst is, it literally won't allow you to sleep. You keep tossing and turning all night hoping to get some sleep. Sometimes you feel the numbness all over your body making you unable to move. You keep staring at the ceiling with a monologue playing in your head.

We humans are too good in hiding emotions. It is a fact.  But one day, you'll fed up with this. Pretending to be happy all day and then being unable to sleep at night. Having someone by your side can make things better a little bit. I think family cannot solve these kind of problems as you already stopped telling your mother each and everything a long time ago. Sometimes a friend is all we need. Someone to hold your hands and say “eveything is gonna be alright”.

You find the night longer than usual. You will try to distract your mind from it but it'll go in vain. And then when the sun rises again, you think of all possible ways to spent the day looking happy. It is really hard, ain't it? Pretending to be happy rather than showing your true emotions. Even if you have the courage to show what you are, sometimes people won't get what you are trying to say. They will mistook for something else. Thats the time you start you feel guilty for expressing yourself. What an irony!! You will be in the same pit of darkness even if you choose to tell someone everything. Its a lot better to tell no one.